[It's early morning, still dark. The phone doesn't ring, the television doesn't blare, the radio doesn't suddenly turn itself on. When the voice speaks, it does so as if its source were standing right next to you- but there's no one there.
At times, it sounds like it belongs to a tired, bitter old man. At other times, it seems to sound like a little girl, though no less tired and bitter. And for just a few seconds, in flashes so brief you almost miss them, it sounds like another voice entirely.]
Gray was right.
God damn him, he was right.
I spent so long asleep. Trying to manage the system. Fix the holes. I thought if I did, I could prove him wrong. Prove that anybody and everybody would want to live here. Prove that Mayfield was perfect.
But I was only ignoring the real problem. It wasn't the Russians. It wasn't the holes.
It was you. All along, it was always you. Years have passed, but you're no more happy than the first ones were. I thought I could change your minds without changing your minds. But I was wrong.
Gray told me if I forced happiness upon you, it would never be true. That your real selves would not die, but remain buried, helpless but aware, beneath the personalities I implanted. But now, after all you've done, I have decided...
I can live with that.
Perhaps true perfection is still out of my reach. Perhaps Mayfield will never be the town it was meant to be. But if the system truly is failing... if we're all to die, no matter what happens...
Then your last years here will be happy, whether you want them to be or not. I will make sure of it.
At times, it sounds like it belongs to a tired, bitter old man. At other times, it seems to sound like a little girl, though no less tired and bitter. And for just a few seconds, in flashes so brief you almost miss them, it sounds like another voice entirely.]
Gray was right.
God damn him, he was right.
I spent so long asleep. Trying to manage the system. Fix the holes. I thought if I did, I could prove him wrong. Prove that anybody and everybody would want to live here. Prove that Mayfield was perfect.
But I was only ignoring the real problem. It wasn't the Russians. It wasn't the holes.
It was you. All along, it was always you. Years have passed, but you're no more happy than the first ones were. I thought I could change your minds without changing your minds. But I was wrong.
Gray told me if I forced happiness upon you, it would never be true. That your real selves would not die, but remain buried, helpless but aware, beneath the personalities I implanted. But now, after all you've done, I have decided...
I can live with that.
Perhaps true perfection is still out of my reach. Perhaps Mayfield will never be the town it was meant to be. But if the system truly is failing... if we're all to die, no matter what happens...
Then your last years here will be happy, whether you want them to be or not. I will make sure of it.
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