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[crusthatecean]

[Phone]

I'm getting really tired of these 'change your history and personality' events. I put down a vote that next event be one of those 'tear out your organs while you're awake' events, I think I prefer those. Who is with me?

Also it goes without saying that I was an obnoxious fucking asshole, like pretty much all highbloods, I guess. Feel free to take issue with it, not least because out of all my many flaws, I never thought that would be one of them.

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[est33medpouncellor]

[Little quieter at that.] ...But you didn't mean it fur real... And...

..I'm just happy he's okay too. He's okay still right? [GOTTA CHECK THESE THINGS-]

[crusthatecean]

As far as I know, he's fine. I was just an ass.

...And we should probably talk Gamzee.

[est33medpouncellor]

Ummmmm... [Curses!]

...Okay... [It's probably important though, so she'll agree to talking about that.]

[crusthatecean]

I'm not planning to...I mean, I just...I know it's not fair to make you put up with that guy. I can keep him away from you and Equius if that's what you want.

You were right about us.

[est33medpouncellor]

Um! That's okay! I just don't want anything bad to happen evurr again! [...They can try.]

...H33h33~~ I thought so! I can just tell you know!~

[crusthatecean]

Yeah, well.

[Trailing off, embarrassed.]

It was my fault I didn't handle him the way I needed to. It's a mistake I won't make again.

[est33medpouncellor]

[She's nodding on the other end. That's what moirails do after all, so it makes sense!]

I know you won't! And this way, nothing bad will happen here right? [...Well. Along those lines, at least. ...Kinda late in their world uhhh...]

[crusthatecean]

I'm not saying you have to like him. And everyone being safe, that's my first priority.

But yeah, he's not dangerous here. Nothing will happen.

[est33medpouncellor]

Okay!~ That's good enough fur me! [As long as Gamzee's not going crazy, it's alllll good.]

[crusthatecean]

Good.

I'm not going to tell you not to tell him, but he doesn't know what he did.

[est33medpouncellor]

Mn! [Oh?!! He doesn't even know?

There's some nodding on her end.] Okay! I won't say a thing then! I don't think Gamz33 would want to know what happened anyways..! [Or at least normal Gamzee? She thinks? BAH confusing.]

[crusthatecean]

Okay. Thanks, Nepeta.

[est33medpouncellor]

It's the least I can do!~ I'm just glad evurryone's okay again.

[crusthatecean]

So am I, even though I'm getting sick of this.

Fair warning, these events always make me even more of a douchebag than I am normally.

[est33medpouncellor]

Mmm... Okay! I'll make sure to rememburr that.

[crusthatecean]

I wasn't being serious.

I mean, it's true, but that would be a pretty shitty preemptive apology.

[est33medpouncellor]

But I know that you're gonna apologize anyway if something goes wrong again right? So it counts! [She's very open to forgive you isn't she?]

[crusthatecean]

I will, yeah. I'm just fucking exhausted with all of this. It's like, every few weeks I'm either apologizing for something I didn't want to do or trying to convince everyone, hey, it's no big deal, Tavros will so come back and isn't dead forever or anything! Who cares if Terezi forgot everything that happened here!

I am so tired of it. This might come as a shock but I wasn't made to be an optimist by nature.

[est33medpouncellor]

I don't think anyone wouldn't get tired of evurrything. I was only here for one 'thing', and I know I don't want it to happen again..!

[crusthatecean]

It's just that I've been here for over a human year now. That's about half a sweep.

Ever since I first showed my sorry face here I've tried to make things better for us, and I have nothing to show for it. All I've done is watch everyone come and go so many times. I'm the one who has been here the longest and still remembers now. After me is Gamzee, and if he's next to go I don't know what I'll do.