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[crusthatecean]

[Phone]

I'm getting really tired of these 'change your history and personality' events. I put down a vote that next event be one of those 'tear out your organs while you're awake' events, I think I prefer those. Who is with me?

Also it goes without saying that I was an obnoxious fucking asshole, like pretty much all highbloods, I guess. Feel free to take issue with it, not least because out of all my many flaws, I never thought that would be one of them.

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[rebelcommunion]

Count it as preemptive if you'd rather. And I know what it's like to have apologies to give.

[crusthatecean]

Ugh. Fine.

For the record what I did was prove I'm one hundred times the asshole my moirail is.

[rebelcommunion]

I thought that might be what happened after your reference to coldbloods.

[Nope. Nope. Never calling them highbloods. Nope.]

Your moirail is lucky to have you. And you're lucky to have him.

[crusthatecean]

I know that.

I just don't enjoy realizing what a fucking pile of shit I would have been if I had dealt with everything he has.

[rebelcommunion]

Everyone has their own trials and burdens to bear. That's why every one gets a chance. Caste or color doesn't matter. Of course if they choose to waste that chance...

[His voice loses it's joy.]

Most coldbloods do. And by being in the mindset of one maybe you'll discover the way to convince them to take it instead.

[crusthatecean]

He's not like that. A lot of awful things happened and made him act like they do, but he's not like that.

[rebelcommunion]

I wasn't speaking of your moirail specifically.

[crusthatecean]

I know you weren't. But he's not.

[rebelcommunion]

Did I say all coldbloods were? I said most and I'm glad your moirail isn't counted in that number.

[crusthatecean]

I know you didn't.

You know, it's bullshit to call them that. Coldbloods? What the fuck do you think you're playing at. It's pissing me off.

[rebelcommunion]

They are not higher than me. They never will be. What would you have me call them then?

[crusthatecean]

I call them highbloods, because that's what they are. They're higher than us, they control us, they look down their ugly noses at us.

Am I saying they deserve to be? No. But that's how things are, it's ridiculous to pretend otherwise.

[rebelcommunion]

They control us in part because we allow them to be higher. We allow them to keep that idea in their very name. But not me! They are not high and I will not call them that. Nor are we low.

Let them think they are higher and look down at us. Equality will when out when we break free of that subservient mindset.