>Kanaya: Regard Oneself As An Unfailure

[chastesaw]

[Phone]

*Kanaya's voice sounds strained and exhausted. But that's usual, these days.* ...in a momentary lapse of its customary cruelty, it seems that this town has seen fit to return to me a Matriorb.

Then... it truly is possible for us to rebuild. If I can actually manage to accomplish my trusted duty this time and protect it instead of succumbing to the swiftly coursing waters of abject failure, our race might be able to rebuild.

This is all kind of monumental, to be honest, and I'm not quite sure how to-- or what I should be doing.

*A pause* I'll think of something.

In the interim, if we are acquainted and you have no desire to become a meal I would like to remind you all to please stay away from my hive. Because I am very famished right now.

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[chastesaw]

...I'm not certain I ever imagined I'd be given another chance to rectify my earlier failure.

I'm not ungrateful.

[crusthatecean]

I can't really see how you can possibly construe that as your fault, but fine.

How are you doing? I'm back to normal, so I can bring you by more...it won't be as difficult as before. Or I can get someone else's.

[chastesaw]

Fault and failure are not necessarily synonymous.

...I don't want it to be any of us. It's... it's difficult to control myself once I stop, and if it were too much, then I could--

--well, it's just really not a situation I'd want to occur.

[crusthatecean]

But how much longer is this going to go on?

I mean, if you fucking need it, then you can't just avoid it.

[chastesaw]

I... I'm not sure, to be perfectly forthcoming.

The urges have lessened since the end of the chaos, so perhaps they'll eventually fade entirely. One hopes.

[crusthatecean]

If you say so.

[chastesaw]

Karkat, I don't know, and the thought of remaining like this forever as a slave to urges that are actually pretty disgusting is...

...I hope it goes away. I don't know what I'd do elsewise.