Fourth Song - And Suddenly, Emotions?

[windows_hyliaedition]

[Action - 913 Bilko]

After the odd events of everyone's memories twisting to something else, Fi seems to look more like she used to, despite still obviously being human. A nice, beautiful dress, completely with the poncho-like 'arms' that extend to cover her still present and human ones.

It's therefore a terrible pity that she's spent the entire day inside.

Actually, Fi has spent ALL day inside, despite the fact that she should really have gone to school. Perhaps she doesn't think anyone will notice or all- but the fact is, she doesn't seem quite.. Stable.

"Hahh... hahh..." For those in the house, Fi can actually be found huddled in the corner by where the record player sits, apparently either afraid of something or simply trembling.

Otherwise, maybe someone should check in on her- the door's unlocked... And even then she's bound to answer if you knock enough times. Or if the phone rings enough.

[[ooc - tl;dr, the barriers for emotional capacity got ripped down by her AU self, and she gets to deal with the backlash of actually feeling fear. Phone responses are welcome!]]

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Phone

[chalicejoker]

[Hajime is attempting to make sure he hasn't hurt more people than he already knows he did, and so he is trying to call Fi to check up on her after their encounter. He'll just sit there and wait as the phone rings and rings...]

Phone - Whoops there go my tears. ;u;

[windows_hyliaedition]

... [No one seems to be answering the phone for a bit.

In the end, the still present logical side insists she pick it up rather than being rude.]

...Hello?

It's angst time! *flails*

[chalicejoker]

Fi.

[He sounds somewhat relieved.]

This is Hajime. Are you...are you all right after our altercation in the park?

whoo-!

[windows_hyliaedition]

Ah. Greetings then, Hajime. [Well it seems she doesn't hold anything against you at least...]

...I am... Fine. [Her voice says otherwise.] What occurred then was the fault of Mayfield... [...And actually not what has her shuddering beside a phone, uh.]

Re: whoo-!

[chalicejoker]

It's just one more thing the town must answer for when the day comes.

[Now, he can be kind of an idiot with emotions at times, but even he's picked up on the fact that something is definitely not right here.]

You do not sound "fine." Is something wrong?

[windows_hyliaedition]

I- ...No?

[Holding her head now. Did she just lie? Yes she did, why-] For my memories to be compromised so drastically... ...It did not occur, that if I believed I had previously been capable of emotion.... I...

[chalicejoker]

[Okay, Fi, you're clearly not okay, no matter what you've just said.]

Calm down, calm down...you're still capable of emotion now. Otherwise you would not be upset.

[windows_hyliaedition]

That-

Yes. Of course, however, I was not meant to be, before, in my true form, but I believed it, and now-

[And now suddenly her brain's well aware that there can be emotional paths, and it is making damn good use of them. Shoot.

Regardless, someone has obviously lost confidence in things such as precise and logical judgement.]

[chalicejoker]

They can be overwhelming at first. That's...actually fairly normal. My true form was ill equipped for it as well. What is important now is not what you were meant to be, but what you are now.

[Granted, he was never a precise, logical sort before finding human emotion...and actually, this conversation is helping his own post-AU emotional turmoil. Funny how that works.]

[windows_hyliaedition]

And potentially hers as well. Yesss... Calm yourself emotional pathways...

"...I cannot... Cannot calculate, as I could." She couldn't before really- but it didn't actually HIT until now. "...Is this what humans call 'fear'..?"

[chalicejoker]

I believe that's what you're experiencing, yes. Human fear. It is a more complicated emotion than one might think.

[windows_hyliaedition]

...I had thought all emotions were complicated. It makes sense, I... Suppose, for some to be more so than others however.

[chalicejoker]

I originally thought it was merely a response to an external threat...but it can surface at odd moments.

[He thinks a moment.]

It is not as complex as love, however. I believe that one is the most difficult of them all. Fear may at least be traced back to something logical that would aid in survival in most cases. Love is...not.

[windows_hyliaedition]

...I fail to see how this particular sensation is at all a survival aid.

[chalicejoker]

It assists in letting one know when a situation is dangerous and caution may be required, for the most part. It can be a warning.

...and then there are other times it simply gets in the way.

[windows_hyliaedition]

..That is not a very efficient thing.

[...That's emotions for yah, Fi.]

[chalicejoker]

I don't think they're supposed to be efficient.

But they're...nice. I regret being without most of them the past few days.

[windows_hyliaedition]

...I did not realize the lack of emotion could cause something like that, myself. There was another like myself in my realm similar, who synthesized his emotions... However he was the antithesis of my very being as well... [...She doesn't want to become another 'Ghirahim'.]

[chalicejoker]

I felt rage, if anything. That was all. It was...all I was able to feel for a very long time, originally.

[He sounds a little uncomfortable.]

It's not a very pleasant state.

[windows_hyliaedition]

[Mnn...] Rage is a dangerous emotion I have observed... ...It is powerful, but left unchecked destroys even itself...

[chalicejoker]

That is true. Many emotions can be dangerous if left unchecked, really...

[Man, emotions really are hard...]

[windows_hyliaedition]

[There's a sigh on her end.] It would seem that learning the dealings of such emotions is going to be more difficult than assumed. [Hahhh...]

Though I suppose that, in part, the current body will at least lend aid to it. [...If only by force. Oh joy, tears.]

They have such awesome CR...X3

[chalicejoker]

It's an ongoing process. I've been at it for well over a year and I'm still learning new things.

Human bodies are really the best things to learn in. They're well-attuned to such things.

[Tears? Wait. Is she crying? He...is unequipped to deal with crying. Especially over the phone.]

...do you need me to come over?

omg they do... ;;u;; (I meant for the tears to be a mental comment BUT THIS WORKS BETTER. 8U)

[windows_hyliaedition]

Hn? [...Oh- what, her face is wet what-

Bit of a pause while she wipes her eyes.] If you say so- I will believe you. While a guide, I observed that the hero wielding the blade was able to adapt with great speed. ...Hopefully that applies here also.

...You wish to visit..? [Eh? She seems to misunderstand why you'd want to come over.]

Hooray for mistaken readings working out, then! 8D

[chalicejoker]

Humans do tend to be rather adaptable...and I'm sure you will do the same.

I will visit if you wish. Many times, humans find it comforting not to be alone when they are upset.

WHOO!

[windows_hyliaedition]

... [Ah.]

...Very well then. ...I appreciate the offer. [...That's probably a yes. ...It is definitely a yes.]

Careful, I think he's adopting her as a sister

[chalicejoker]

Just tell me where you are. I'll be right over.

Somehow I don't mind that. ;u;

[windows_hyliaedition]

.... 913 Bilko. [She doesn't say anything else- and if you hang up she'll eventually put the phone back due to the dial tone ringing too loud.]

Hehe

[chalicejoker]

Bilko? Okay, I'm on Stevens...I'll be right there.

[He hangs up the phone and darts out the door. You're only a couple of streets over and it's not a long walk, especially since he's cut through a few yards on the way. In a bit, there's knocking on your door.]

[windows_hyliaedition]

She'll answer the door, though she doesn't seem to be looking up from the ground immediately.

It's rude to stare at feet instead of faces though, isn't it? "...Do you wish to come in?"

[chalicejoker]

[Now that he's there, he realizes he only has a vague idea of what should be done in a situation like this. Usually, he's the one holing up and hiding from society.]

If you'd like me to.

[windows_hyliaedition]

When one socially secluded being meets another...

She nods after a moment, stepping aside to let him in. "I appreciate this. Thank you." Having a friend of any kind in times like this is good, even if she's not entirely sure why after all.

[chalicejoker]

[He steps inside, giving her a nod.]

You're welcome. It's the very least I could do, after everything that happened.

[The guilt from his AU self's actions will be a long time in leaving...but at least he's got a chance to make things right.]

[windows_hyliaedition]

"Ah..." ...Oh, yes.. What happened then- "What I said that time... I have no doubt that I would ever even briefly feel the need to resort to such a thing. ...Please understand that." Fi just said please.

Yep yep, world's ending, yep.

[chalicejoker]

[He shakes his head.]

I was being completely unreasonable--you handled yourself rather well considering the circumstances. Neither of us was quite our normal selves that day.

[windows_hyliaedition]

"I suppose." Hnnn. "All the same however, I imagine it is worse when one is led to believe their intentions are entirely reversed than merely guided along a more difficult form of the original ones."

[chalicejoker]

Hrm.

[He looks somewhat uncomfortable.]

I was...doing what I was originally intended to do. Fated for. Something I turned against long ago.

[And he still looks uncomfortable.]

But I was never that...cruel...about it.

[windows_hyliaedition]

"..." Hnnn.

"Occasionally, what is stated as 'fate', is not necessarily reality. ..As it is, I hold none of your actions from that time against you."

[chalicejoker]

[He...actually feels a bit better. Yet he'd gone over there in an attempt to make her feel better. Funny how that works out...]

Thank you.

[Hajime looks thoughtful for a moment.]

I would suggest that we pretend those days never happened, but perhaps we've learned something from them.

[windows_hyliaedition]

"It is truth, after all."

...

"...Perhaps we have. ...I suppose there is much for us to learn, concerning humans."

[chalicejoker]

Indeed. I've been at it for a while now, and they're still proving to be surprising...

[windows_hyliaedition]

"As a whole, they are a fairly unpredictable race it seems."

[chalicejoker]

They've constantly surprised me since I started living with them. Sometimes, I don't think they'll ever stop surprising me.

[windows_hyliaedition]

There's an extremely slight smile at that- but it's large enough for her that it makes a difference. "I must agree- it is a trait of theirs that make their species quite unique, I feel."