There's nothing to talk myself out of. I'm not being hard on myself, I'm being realistic. It's doubtful I'll be able to maintain a job after graduation, I'll probably be relying on Sirius and James for a good deal of my living expenses, and that's only if we manage to find a flat together. Not that I won't try of course, but-- the background checks, you know? I'm registered with the Ministry.

Besides, I can't risk passing this on. I can't-- wouldn't wish this on anyone, much less my own child. It's not a risk I'm willing to take. What kind of life could I offer a significant other, all things considered? I could be the wittiest, funniest, most loving bloke in the world, but certain realities would tend to detract from that, don't you think?

Unless, of course, I happen to find someone who's independently wealthy and can't bear children. That, I suppose, would be ideal. But really, what are the chances I'll be able to woo a girl like that?