[ "Conflicted" doesn't even begin to describe the roiling depths of everything he's felt since he arrived. Before, even- the last time he knelt before the Emperor feels like a long time ago, and his anxieties about his self-identity have only increased.
Not for the first time, Vader feels the pricking of guilt. He shakes his head at Corran's statement, realizing he's not even certain what he's objecting to. That he's used a name with a history that only seems to be clinging more firmly with each passing day? That he's volunteered information which, were they in Vader's respective universe, would have had the Sith Lord immediately moving to terminate him as swift and efficiently as possible? ]
It jolts him abruptly, realizing that if Horn is Halcyon's grandchild and the Jedi have resurfaced in the future without consequence, then what has happened to the Empire? Despite the heat of the day, Vader feels himself go cold. There are questions to ask, questions he doesn't want to know the answers for. Not now. ]
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Not for the first time, Vader feels the pricking of guilt. He shakes his head at Corran's statement, realizing he's not even certain what he's objecting to. That he's used a name with a history that only seems to be clinging more firmly with each passing day? That he's volunteered information which, were they in Vader's respective universe, would have had the Sith Lord immediately moving to terminate him as swift and efficiently as possible? ]
Stop. Stop.
[ He shouldn't care, he shouldn't care about any of this, about everything Obi-Wan said in the guise of Padmé; about Nejaa Halcyon and the living legacy that stands before him, declaring to the man who mercilessly slaughtered the Order that he's proud to be a Jedi. Proud.
It jolts him abruptly, realizing that if Horn is Halcyon's grandchild and the Jedi have resurfaced in the future without consequence, then what has happened to the Empire? Despite the heat of the day, Vader feels himself go cold. There are questions to ask, questions he doesn't want to know the answers for. Not now. ]
I don't want to hear anymore.